Ly- love or hate? both are equally hurting
Mittwoch, Oktober 06, 2010
Life.....
he was right
how do you know whether its like, or "like"
and i keep wondering, who is that person he keeps referring to?
it sounds familiar, yet there's this uncertainty
yea so i have this hao3 gan3 about you
but you don't realise
you probably don't even care
but the mixed signals make me so confused
i just wish i could understand what you're thinking
and yes, it hurts
when i'm happy, i'm at the top of the world
yet the slightest things you do can send me crashing back down
please either help me get off this rollercoaster
or at least understand how it works
appearing offline doesn't really solve my problem haha
me *[[Im not perfect and neither are u]]*
at10:18 PM
Mittwoch, September 08, 2010
Life.....
2 years since the last post here
idk what you think, or why you're acting like this
everytime you act like im not impt, my self esteem takes another dive
like what happened on mon
so you said you were sick
and that you wanted to stay at home to rest and mug history
then when i get home,
i hear you getting excited about how you created another website
ever thought about how i feel?
and usually im the one who starts to talk and stuff
except official things
maybe i seem different
but its cos i dont want to let myself fall any deeper into this
been through it before
it hurts
a lot
and as i try harder
please stop sending me these mixed signals
its dangerous to be too close to your friends
especially those of the opposite gender
you'll never know what it will turn out like
me *[[Im not perfect and neither are u]]*
at10:34 PM
Donnerstag, April 17, 2008
Life.....
im here again
aft a long long time
i thought i cld just give up on putting stuff like tt on this blog but no
i cant find anyone to tell now so...
theres 8 rounds tmr
i really dont want to go
im weak okay i cant run 8 rounds
not aft6 weeks
then theres campfire
theres no one going except them
THEM
it was bad enough that she wasnt in my group
then py and joy and jl and dawn and everyone else decided not to go for this one bt went for the last one
then now even she isnt going
i thought things would get better
havent felt like i couldnt tell anyone anything for a long time
so tmr i really dno what to do la
they're not helping too
when i say sth they just change the topic
i dno la i dun want to talk alr
me *[[Im not perfect and neither are u]]*
at10:22 PM
Dienstag, November 06, 2007
Life.....
its nice that its so dark that ppl cant see ur expression at 8.30 at night
they dont even know tt u're crying so hard u're shaking
i asked if she was going home
she made loads of excuses and it became so apparent the ans was no
i walked slowly home
turned around many times to see if she was behind
then had to look like nth happened in the lift
mum and dad asked if i ate
i said no
they asked if i needed to cook anything
gave them the excuse tt it wld cause indigestion to eat so late so i didnt eat dinner at all
nv eat refreshments
bought wedges and ate in cls for recess
and ate half a bun for lunch
then went home and tried to eat noodles
was halfway through a small packet of twistie- like things when i didnt feel hungry anymore
i really dno what to do
someone help me pls
me *[[Im not perfect and neither are u]]*
at9:58 PM
Samstag, Mai 19, 2007
Life.....
im feeling lousier with every day
i argued with people i know i need help from
now i cant get anyone to understand
i dno what exactly happened this few days but i dun feel well abt it
tell me if u dont care
dun give me false hope
and i dno why u make me feel like im not succeeding in making u satisfied
im trying ok
stop putting stress on me
stop being pissed abt stuff tt isnt important
stop getting all huffed up when i didnt do anything
ure making me feel like a failure
and u u promised
u promised but now u say it has to be shared
what do u want me to do?
i dno what to do anymore
me *[[Im not perfect and neither are u]]*
at11:18 PM
Samstag, Februar 24, 2007
Life.....
u dont know me
if u did u would have known how i felt
u didnt
and u think im mad cos of the coh thing
im not
is it my fault i actually care and u dont?
is it a crime to be friends with ppl younger than me?
u had to hit that spot
its mean
i think its unfair to assume so much and say im assuming
u know how helpless i feel when i see 2 people who are my friends sick?
u know how lousy i feel when someone cries and i cant do anything?
u didnt care about them
so why pretend?
did u ever know?
did u even bother to notice?
so what if i have few friends my age
so what if i make friends with ppl younger by a year?
why are u making such a fuss about it?
whats wrong with wanting to be friends with others
cos ppl like u dont care abt ppl like us
and i need some ppl to actually rely on
as in not the kind who will get all huffy for no good reason
or the kind who will try to fit in with unkind ppl
so i was upset
not mad
and u cant tell the difference
wad has been going on all this time?
me *[[Im not perfect and neither are u]]*
at10:57 PM
Freitag, Februar 16, 2007
Life.....
sry la
if u knew me well u wld have known wad was wrong
i can help others
why cant i help myself?
i can tell others to go get back their friends
but i couldnt tell myself to
i can make ppl feel welcome
but i cant make myself feel welcome
i can stop ppl from being left out
but i cant avoid being left out
its so unfair
i can help ppl with their problems
but i cant solve my own
i can tell ppl theres hope
but i cant say im confident of my future
i can say must work hard
but i only can do badly
maybe this hol will cool me off
me *[[Im not perfect and neither are u]]*
at10:22 PM
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